“Illumined”
Mystic Meandering
March 4, 2015
March 4, 2015
I am
still wandering daily in the Inner Wilderness of Silence and Solitude – as much
as I can anyway… And no matter how much I tell myself, and others, that I am
quitting blogging, I am compelled to write! J LOL… It is
what I do, what comes naturally - writing that is… So here I am - writing again! Here’s the latest from my “wildnerness wanderings…”
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This
“wandering” in the Great Inner Wilderness – the Vastness of Being - is
intentional. It is not floundering or aimlessness, but a deep resting in The Silence of The Mystery
of Being… I am not renouncing anything, nor *seeking* to attain anything – like
enlightenment – but only allowing myself to feel the deeper Rhythm of Life
within - *through* Silence and Solitude - through moving *with* the movement of
my Innermost Being that arises from the deep inner space of Silence…
This is
not an escape *from* the “world”, yet to some degree that is true. It is leaving behind the “surface
consciousness” of the world that so often drives us/me through life, and keeps
us/me from “deepening” into The Inner Rhythm – until - I am able to intuitively
and instinctively *feel* the Internal Rhythm of Being flowing in and through
myself – naturally – usually through being in Silence…
This
Rhythm is a fluid, open, movement of unending intimacy with “The Beloved” (The
Formless Silence that animates all Life)… I wander this Inner Wilderness bringing my
Awareness and Attention to that internal movement of Inner Being – seeing how
IT wants to move me. At times I feel as
if “The Beloved” is as much in my shoes as I am in “The Beloved’s” shoes - walking as one…
The Inner
Wilderness is a space of remedial Silence that heals the Heart and Spirit. It allows me to be “anonymous” – without
identity, or function – just resting – allowing myself to be absorbed by the
Silence – leaving everything else behind until I am fully Immersed…
The first
week I experienced an unexplainable, unbidden, palpable, all-encompassing – as
if held from within - Presence of Peace.
Standing in the grocery store one day – yes, I still have to tend to the
mundane J
I am not in a cave somewhere J - I was acutely aware that I was surrounded and
infused with a Great Peace in the midst of chaos… I stood in wonder realizing
this as life played itself out around me… I also realized that I was actually
functioning *from* that place, even without being aware of it, until I became
aware of it – if you know what I mean.;) A sense of
“me-ness” had dropped, to some degree, and “I” was just Peace – doing the
groceries – living life… But this was
only a glimpse…a glimmer of Reality…
One day,
in the second week of inner “wandering”, I felt myself fall more deeply into a
felt sense of a deeper Inner Rhythm - a seamless fluidity within – that nothing
could interrupt: not thought, thinking, the external distractions of life, nor
the deeply engrained emotional and mental patterns that arose during the week
as well – the Boogeymen In the Wildnerness J - which I may write about later… Once again I was
losing a sense of “me.” It was freeing
as “I” was opened up to the deeper Rhythm of Life…
Another
morning, as I was sitting, head tilted back resting on the back of the chair,
eyes closed, face in the sun, I became aware of a dance of fluid color underneath
my eyelids. Colors were merging and
blending with each other forming shapes and images – like paintings. If I could only paint what I see! This is not an uncommon phenomenon to see
fluid colors when resting with closed eyes, but most of the time we aren’t
aware of it, don’t even see it. My sense
of self got lost in the imagery and dance of color, as another layer of “surface
consciousness” seemingly dropped away and I tuned into the deeper Rhythm again
– a deeper Silence – a deeper Awareness.
I do not
consider these merely “experiences”, but the *normal* play of the
Formless in Form that we can encounter if we are paying attention… The Formless
(“The Beloved”) dances within us, and comes to us in many Forms, gracing us
with ITs touch… We only need to be aware…
“The Beloved falls in Love with
ItSelf…
Inhabits ItSelf – as Form…
and loves the Form of ItSelf…”
Inhabits ItSelf – as Form…
and loves the Form of ItSelf…”
MM
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I'm so glad you're still here, Christine! I learn so much through what you share! :o) Resting in the Mystery... I like that expression. A great way to describe meditation & being all at once in the best possible way. I suppose that's how I experince God--resting in His mercy, His great mysterday. And how beautiful to washed over with a sense of PEACE--and right in the midst of the supermarekt--I love that! ;O) Very wonderful you fluid colors/eyes experience. I've had that sometimes--it's so...well, almost magical! So much is about awareness, isn't it--really just taking the time, making the space, stopping, tuning in. So much slips by. Unless we unplug a little, we can be missing so much. This was an especially lovely, post--Thank you!! :o) ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteThanks Tracy... Glad you liked it... Of course I am speaking in general terms here that can apply to anyone's religion or "spirituality", that is neither male or female - but Nameless.. Many people refer to "The Beloved" as Shiva, the Formless aspect of Being. I sometimes refer to "The Beloved" as the Sacred Silence. It all depends on one's belief or interpretation. But yes - it's all about turning inward and spending time in the deep space of Silence...:)
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