Here we
are again, at the turning of yet another wheel! J B started a new job in November -
just 3 days before Thanksgiving! Woo-Hoo!J
We were/are relieved and grateful, with a tinge of tentativeness;
despite which I was doing my happy dance.
I *wanted* to share it here immediately, but felt it was too soon to
announce it publicly, although I have already told some of you privately. Of course we know that nothing is permanent,
that life is always in flux, ebbing and flowing continually, but – he was hired
as a “permanent” employee, not a “contract-to-hire” position. So we breathe now with a little more
“certainty” – knowing that even that is illusive. And even though it still feels a little
“new”, I felt that the Winter Solstice was an excellent time to bring it to
Light… J
…the Solstice being symbolic of Light “returning” out of darkness, of
new beginnings, and the turning of the wheel once again…
As B
embarks on this new stage in his career with confidence, passion and enthusiasm,
we sense that we are on a threshold of a “new” journey… After only 4 weeks he feels he has found his
“dream job”, where he can shine and feel fulfilled. Good thing at almost 62. J And so we are settling into his work schedule,
and I have been trying to use the last few weeks to find the internal Rhythm
with Life once again, and gain some clarity on my life direction. That is partly why such a deep need for
solitude and silence – to get clear, to simplify internally, to become
single-minded, although that is not quite working out as I intended, as there
are still so many distractions pulling at me. But, I am managing each week to
carve out blocks of time in silence and solitude, and beginning to feel The
Rhythm of Silence within again, as I have been writing about recently.
I have
known for a long time now that there is something innate within that compels me
to explore and discover deeper layers of Truth, and Intimacy with the “Divine
Nature” within - however one defines that for themselves. And with that there is a sense of being at a
threshold spiritually. In many ways I
feel like I am on the threshold of a “new” Light of Awareness, a “new” way of
seeing and being; coming out of the *illusion* of separation *from* this “Infinite
Nature” that we are. These are only
words, and they cannot accurately convey what I’m really experiencing. All I can say is that it is profound. And sometimes the less said the better - for
the time being. J
I feel this
new threshold calling me into even more solitude, and deeper layers of Silence,
like the Christian “Desert Fathers”, or Buddhist Monks who went to live in the
forests, and Hindu Sadhus who went to live in caves. Except that I would need lots of windows in
that cave! Lol… It is in the
metaphorical sense that I use these terms and images. In reality it is more a turning inward, and
entering the cave of the Spiritual Heart, withdrawing the mind from the world’s
rhythms – not as an escape, but to become more deeply *Aware* of the Voice of
“The Infinite” – that’s what Mystics do. J I am
neither a renunciate nor an ascetic. I
am still very much engaged in the requirements of daily living and family. I simply want more time to sit in Infinite Silence
– listening - finding the intuitive Rhythm of the Heart again – dropping the
false veil of separation from the Ultimate Reality that we are. It’s
not really even about seeking “enlightenment” anymore, but a deep recognition
that we are already lit from within.
Liberation…
At this
new threshold, and after 4 1/2 years of blogging, I have no idea what direction
this blog may take, or how often I will be blogging, as that too will be part
of the new Flow. The “blogging”
experience has been an ever-evolving process reflecting my own spiritual
unfolding. I have lost some readers along
the way, and gained some friends as well; the ebb and flow of relationships,
touching each others lives – even momentarily.
For those who are still with me I have enjoyed your loving, supportive,
and encouraging company on the road… And
if you are unknown to me out there reading this in cyberspace somewhere J I appreciate your silent Presence
as well. The invitation is always open
to come along on this next phase of Life’s journey with me and see where I land.
I enjoy the company of Friends who help
light the way… J
~♥~
“A baby pigeon on the edge of the
nest hears the call
and begins her flight…
How can the soul/Heart
not fly
when a message arrives saying,
’…come, come back to me!’
What is the secret that opens the
door?
The key is the flutter of the hearts wings
and its endless longing.
When the door opens,
walk on the path…
where everything old becomes new,
and never look back…”
Rumi
~
A warm and
Light-filled Yuletide Season
to all…
~
Photo: Sunset from B’s building
