"Wandering" in the Great Inner Wilderness - the Vastness of Being -
is intentional. It is not floundering or aimlessness, but a deep
resting in The Silence of The Mystery...I am not renouncing
anything, nor seeking to attain anything - like enlightenment -
but only allowing myself to feel the deeper Rhythm of Life within -
through Silence and Solitude - through moving with the movement
of the Eternal, Infinite Being that arises from the deep inner space
of Silence.
This is not an escape from the "world", yet to some degree that is true.
It is leaving behind the "surface consciousness" of the world that so
often drives us/me through life, and keeps us/me from deepening
into The Inner Rhythm - until - I am able to intuitively and
and instinctively feel the Internal Rhythm of Being flowing in and
through myself - naturally - usually through being in intentional
Silence...
This Rhythm is a fluid, open movement of unending intimacy with
"The Beloved" (The Formless Silence that animates all Life)... I
wander this Inner Wilderness bringing my awareness to that internal
movement of Being - seeing how IT wants to move me. At
times I feel as if "The Beloved" is as much in my shoes as I am
in "The Beloved's" shoes - walking as one...
The Inner Wilderness is a space of remedial Silence for me that heals
the Heart and Spirit/Soul. It allows me to be "anonymous" - without
identity, or function - just resting - allowing myself to be absorbed
by the Silence - leaving everything else behind until I am fully
Immersed...
Sometimes I experience an inexplicable, unbidden, palpable all-
encompassing - as if held from within - Presence of the deepest
Peace. Standing int the grocery store one day - yes, I still have to
tend to the mundane :) I am not in a cave somewhere :) - I was
acutely aware that I was surrounded and infused with a Great Peace
in the midst of chaos... I stood in wonder realizing this as life played
itself out around me... I also realized that I was actually functioning
from that place, even without being aware of it, until I became aware
of it - if you know what I mean. A sense of "me-ness" had dropped,
to some degree, and "I" was just Peace - doing the groceries -
living life... But this was only a glimpse...a glimmer of Reality
that faded over time.
Once, I felt myself fall more deeply into a felt sense of a deeper Inner
Rhythm - a seamless fluidity within - that nothing could interrupt: not
thought or the external distractions of life, nor the deeply ingrained
emotional and mental patterns that arose as well. Once again,
I was losing a sense of "me." It was freeing as "I" was opened up to
the deeper Rhythm of Being; a deeper Awareness... But this
too faded in time.
Although these experiences faded, I do not consider them mere
"mystical experiences", but the normal play of the Formless in
Form that we encounter if we are paying attention... The Formless
dances within us, and comes to us in many Forms, gracing us with
ITs touch... We only need to be aware...
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"The Beloved falls in Love with ItSelf...
Inhabits ItSelf - as Form...
and loves the Form of ItSelf..."
MM
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this post was originally written in 2015
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