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Thursday, September 13, 2012

Emergence...


For some reason I’ve “gone dark” as they say – meaning – the words are just not there.  Perhaps I have found another means of expression…   Monday I started a 5 week intuitive painting class on line by Bloom True with artist Flora Bowley that has daily lessons 6 days a week, and two “painting days” a week.  In the first day’s opening introduction I knew I was on a journey of Emergence *through* painting.  She talked of embracing the Heart’s Wisdom, and opening to the Heart and painting intuitively, listening to what wants to emerge.  I knew right away that it was going to be much more than just an “art class.”  It is about really listening deeply to the Inner Voice *through* painting.  And – for me - so far - it’s been about uncovering deeper and deeper layers within that I hadn’t realized were there.  It’s been a very emotional process, and I’ve only just begun!

Her process is about building layer upon layer of paint, one on top of the other – allowing it all to intuitively emerge with each layer. It also includes meditations, journaling, self-awareness, intuitive exercises and a body-centered approach to connecting with the paint and canvas through music and movement – a body-mind-spirit connection.  Flora says, “when we disconnect from the Heart’s Wisdom, a more ego-based intellect starts to run the show.”  She also says that “what your issues are will emerge right away.”  I am experiencing that already in my first ever attempt at painting on canvas – the mind wanting to control what is happening, anxious of the uncertainty, wanting to get it “right” the first time, instead of just allowing what wants to emerge to emerge.  It has actually been “nerve wracking” experience this first week as I step into this unknown territory, not knowing what to expect, and feeling like I *should* know what to do…  Ah, there it is - the emergence of a life long pattern – fear of the unknown, of what will emerge if I open up and just let go of control…  I can see there will be many opportunities for opening and letting go through the creative process - opening to deeply held emotions, opening to intuition, opening to the Heart, opening to the depths of Being - *trusting* the process.  As I’m discovering art, like life, is about getting in touch with different layers of experience…

I call this first one “Emergence” – for obvious reasons I think. J  As I experimented with paints what emerged were long stems with what appears like fingers reaching upward… The photo above is only a partial picture. Unfortunately the photos of the whole painting didn’t come out well enough to post, but this gives you an idea of the colors and image.  It has a very metaphorical feeling for me, as once again I find myself in transition from one form to another – emerging from the depths, reaching into the unknown... 



12 comments:

  1. Dearest Christine!
    "...in transition from one form to another – emerging from the depths, reaching into the unknown..."~~ I thought I saw you :)
    ♥♥

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  2. Yes, I find this too, all your stuff is condensed and emerges in your art practice. The course sounds great.

    I love your colours and there is so much movement in this piece. Nice!

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    1. Thank you Carole! Yes, it sure does condense things! Phew...

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  3. I can see clearly your emergence, it looks rather beautiful like a rush of growth rising, transforming and blooming. I have read many wonderful things about Flora's courses, she is over here in the UK shortly I believe!

    Looking forward to more layers. :~)xxx

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    1. Thanks Sue :) Yes, Flora is very inspiring. And she will be in Somerset Sept. 27-30. Amazing how she does all this: online e-course and workshops all over the world, and PAINT!

      Always a work in progress :)

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  4. This is VERY INSPIRING, Christine! Have fun while you trust this process. Having taken this painting course earlier this summer myself, I know how you're feeling the first week... so much to take in and explore. I loved this course, it was one of the best that I've ever done for my creative personal development. LOVE seeing your paint drips!looking forward to seeing/hearing more about your experience with this. Let go, be bold! ;o) ((HUG))

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    1. Ha-Ha! What a week! And it's not over yet! Feeling stressed and I'm only on first layers! So far unable to paint over first layers... I like them too much :) So today I will just scribble a layer on so I can actually get to second layer experience! lol. It certainly is much more than I ever thought it would be!

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  5. I particularly caught on this part of your statement: "fear of the unknown, of what will emerge if I open up and just let go of control…" Perhaps this is why our intellect sometimes shuts down (or, as you said, goes "dark"). We try to protect ourselves (with words) from our lack of control (from our awareness that we have none).

    Thank you for this, Christine. So much spoke to me in my own dark, wordless, transitioning! It's good to know you're there.

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    1. That's a good point, Chris! I hadn't thought of it, but I can see that too. How the mind shuts down, unable to articulate out of fear. Yes, that sounds true here. And what a great awareness that words have to do with protecting ourselves from awareness.... Very nice! I understand the darkness of transitioning in life circumstances, and hope your passage will bring greater awareness on ever level... Peace, C

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  6. I saw the hands reaching up right away too - this is really eye-catching and I can't wait to see more of your intuitive paintings.

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    1. Thanks Uma... Don't know how much I'll post at this time. Not quite ready for prime time :) Still processing a lot with each one. Plus I am having a problem with glare when I take a photo of the painting. Must be something in the paint that is reflecting... Will need to check that out.

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