I wasn’t sure I was going to write about the most
recent violent tragedy here. I’ve been attempting to find the words all week. My heart feels a deep compassion for those
who *survived* this most recent act of violence; for the ones who are
traumatized deep in their psyche, that will carry this wounding for life. My heart aches for their brokenness. May their hearts and minds find solace and
healing.
~
We all live in “The Matrix” of a sometimes painful
world – a name coined by the title of a famous movie of the same name – a world
apparently gone mad. As many of you know,
“we” experienced yet another traumatic, violent event a week ago - one of many
violent outbursts from “The Matrix” that continually occurs all over the world
everyday. But when they happen in America, or
very close to us, we tend to be shocked – as if we feel we are immune to such
happenings. Then we get focused and
fixated on the event – on the drama - and “the evil one” with 24/7 TV coverage. But what if the “evil one” is a messenger –
of sorts? What if these tragic events
are a cosmic wake-up call to come out of “The Matrix”: our dramas, our
characters, our illusions and delusions of comfort and entitlement, safety,
security and conformity – a call out of our dualistic “spiritual” ignorance.
What if the “evil one” isn’t – well – “evil”? What
if he is just like us – experiencing deep pain, confusion, anger,
mis-identifying with his character, experiencing mental illness due to the
circumstances and events in his own life – and then acted out of that deep pain. I’m assuming, like me, you have known people
who have acted out of deep pain and despair. Even if they haven’t become delusional and
killed anyone, or themselves, they still wreak havoc in other people’s lives –
emotionally, and sometimes physically. But are we not also supposed to try to
understand and have compassion for these so-called “dark ones”? It’s much easier to throw people into black
and white categories – and dark dungeons – finding self-righteous dualistic
explanations of good and evil for the tragedies that play themselves out in
life – like a movie.
Isn’t it ironic that in a country where the
majority *watch* violence, in the movies and on TV, or video games, or read it
in books, or even write the books, that we are appalled when it actually
happens *to* us. Just *watching* the
violence from a distance allows us to be unaware of the consequences of
violence, the trauma that is experienced for the rest of one’s life, whether it
be soldiers with PTSD, or the consequences of domestic violence, world
terrorism, or domestic terrorism, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, child abuse –
and every other kind of abuse that man does to man in its ignorance of its own
True Nature – our Eternal Beingness - not
to sound too abstract, too esoteric, or too simplistic here. Isn’t that why some of us are on the
“spiritual paths” that we are on – to discover and *know* this Heart of
Beingness that we are – some call it Enlightenment. And isn’t that what ignorance really is – the
*not* knowing this Beingness that we really are - which then creates all this
havoc and suffering; duality, separateness and drama; the need to separate
black and white, good and evil; the need to separate ourselves from life’s
darkness, out of fear – as if we could.
I’d like to think that simply living more deeply *aware* of our True
Beingness is enough… But maybe that’s a delusion as well…
“Spiritual teachings” say that whatever happens is
all part of experience of “The Matrix” we live in – the result of the deeply
grooved habituated matrix of the unawakened mind – AND – that it all happens *within*
the greater context of Non-Dual Beingness/Consciousness; Beingness seamlessly
experiencing ItSelf… In other words,
Beingness/Consciousness experiences and is inseparable from the totality of human
experience. There are not two separate
entities called Beingness and human, or “good” and “evil”, or dark and light,
opposing each other, independent from Beingness. It’s hard to accept that the dark and the
light are of the same Beingness, especially in times like these. Almost sounds blasphemous doesn’t it… We want to separate them out, and say no,
that can’t be right! It should be all light! – all “good” – all
“peace.” This *shouldn’t* be happening. But it is… Can’t we *do* something about these people!?
(As my mother exclaimed.)
Some spiritual teachings say that the Pure
Beingness (Consciousness) that we essentially are allows life to be exactly as it
is, experiencing it all, embracing it all with deep compassion and love for
humanity’s brokenness and the unfolding of life as it does. We share our
humanity – and – a universal compassionate Beingness beyond the sometimes villainous
characters we meet on the yellow brick road… But are we able to see that Beingness from the
open, aware, compassionate Heart of Being - no matter how clouded in darkness
that may be…
There is only
Grace
and Love…
~
“It is
time to wake up from the dream of non-duality,
with its clichés like: “there is no me”, or
”there is only Oneness”,
and truly meet each other.
For it is our sons, our daughters, our mothers and fathers
and husbands, and beloved friends that have just dropped dead.
No formulas about reincarnation,
karma, soul journeys and the existence or non-existence
of the afterlife will hold up here…
[It is
the] furnace of intimacy – the intimacy
of the broken heart…”
