The heart breaks and breaks and lives by breaking.
It is necessary to go through the dark and deeper dark
and not to turn.
Stanley Kunitz
The Testing Tree
~
As we move through the second half of life, a new voice will
often emerge, pouring out through our longing, our grief, our
anger, and our disappointment. A figure from deep in the soul.
To hear and respond to the call, we have to slow down and
listen through the veil, beyond the noise and density of the
collective...
It takes courage to listen to the soul and to take it seriously.
To cultivate a real devotion to the messages it is sending us.
We are called into this devotional place by way of our
dreams, our study and practices, and through prayer, ritual,
dance, art, creativity, and being a parent, a teacher, a lover,
and a friend (and Caregiver).
It can be a lonely journey at times, if there is no one who can
truly understand us. We turn to look for the Friend though they
are not there.
But the Friend is near, even if unable to be seen.
Holding and tending this aloneness, and the grief that
accompanies it, lies at the very heart of the process of
death and rebirth, and the truth that all healing is
relational in its essence.
There can be no unity or oneness without there first being
an experience of separation. Otherwise, union would have no
meaning. They co-arise together, where a subsequent union
lays the seeds for a more subtle separation, and then a more
subtle union, and on and on.
Separation and multiplicity are just as holy as oneness and
union; they are equally valid emanations of the Beloved.
There is no end to the depths of the human heart. We don't
wiggle into some sustained transcendent state where we're
"permanently" awakened, gone beyond the reality that the
Beloved will pull the rug out from underneath us, in order
to draw us nearer, and to reveal more of its essence.
In the end, [The Beloved] seems quite uninterested in our
fantasies of permanent transcendence.
Even as we may yearn to rise above our embodied
sensitivities, emotional wounding, and relational trauma,
on the alchemical path they are the prima materia, the
required matter, and portals into the depths of the Soul.
~
Vortex Art - Mystic Meandering
2011
